Oh hai! I’m in ur sink clogging ur drainz.
I love my boyfriend. He’s the best. He lets Feebee sleep between us under the covers and he has helped me look after the cheeky monkey that decided to hide on top of our fridge.
My cousin had a friend who could no longer house this cat and asked if I could take her on a trial basis. I agreed and so for now I have a second cat. She has been bullied terribly by two other cats she was living with and has never been outside. All that as well as being the runt of the litter, born with twisted legs.
She is the sweetest little thing, only just a year old, but so scared of everything. I have put her in the kitchen and have had to try and block up everything so she can’t keep hiding from us. Its a slow process to help settle a really anxious cat and so we’re just letting her have her carrier to sleep in with her blanket and making sure she is greeted and interacted with regularly.
Anyway, the boyfriend could not have been more helpful in sorting her out. Plus I’ve been poorly and he’s really taken good care of me. I’m glad he indulges my cat lady nature. Its good because in the future I’ll be happy to care for the big dog he wants :)
I have a pretty severe form of IBS-D & i dont know anyone personally who is previously gone through it or is currently dealing with ibs. So any support is hugely appreciated.
I am curious to know how many people on tumblr are dealing with ibs specifically ibs-d?
I have IBS-d too… I get such painful intestinal cramps they make me weak in the legs, I get cold sweats, nausea… It’s so bad I’m scared of leaving my house in case I get a flare up on the street or wherever I’m at. IBS-d controls my life completely.
Mine is so severe they have no idea what to do with my at the hospital. I don’t want a worse diagnosis but feel like maybe then they would take my pain more seriously and give me meds that actually work. IBS-D is exhausting!
My carrots have germinated and survived the awful weather!!! Huzzah. I have a lot of basil and parsley seedlings too.
Also the first of my peas has popped up. Really… peased… about it. (I’ll show myself out)
Feeling really down at the moment. Not much else to say I guess. Not winning tonight. Not crying, just not feeling anything at all.
The rest is me being miserable so click if you want to be bored, don’t click if you don’t wanna know.
You learn to hold your head up and let the comments roll off. Power is only given to those words if we give it. It doesn’t mean its always easy though. Always the odd day where someone finds a gap in the armour and it hurts and I might have a cry, but otherwise I know it is their ignorance, nothing I have done, causing the whispers.
I sent my G.I specialist a gushing thank you card for being so wonderful to me. He wrote a detailed, 2 page letter to my work telling them to stop harassing me and treating me like my illness was not a real issue. They used to demand I call them every 30 minutes (even if i was being ill) with an update on the status of my bowels (as if its that easy) and expected me to rush in as soon as I was off the toilet. He told them I needed to rest and rehydrate and not be stressed with degrading and unnecessary calls. I actually love him. If only my GP was even slightly as empathetic.
Fascinating stuff. Hope it works!
So tired today. Its a genuine fatigue. I was up at 4am because of weird dreams about Game of Thrones and didnt get back to sleep till nearly 7am. Strange dreams then woke me again and just thinking and being online has made me feel like I need another sleep.
Its probably illness combined with the overwhelming amount of negativity my posts about equal rights are met with. Its frustrating because most of the people who comment or inbox me with negativity have never read up on the issue and most won’t even read the article I link so are debating based on incorrect information, opinion or assumptions. Or they tell me the cause is pointless and I should just accept that. Or they point out token acts or singular instances of basic equality as if that should be good enough or stop me from wanting real, substantial equality.
Its like slamming my head against a brick wall but I can’t stop myself. I can’t be a passive bystander who sees injustice and does nothing. That makes me complicit in the injustice and general wrongness of the world. I can’t ignore violence against women, domestic labour inequalities, unequal pay, sexism in sports, gaming and on the internet, and the constant sexualisation of women and girls because it makes some men (and women) feel bad or uncomfortable. I can’t ignore it or racism or homophobia because what would happen if we all took that stance? If we all ignored these issues and never spoke up or forced people into awareness then nothing would ever change. We should all take personal responsibility to be the change we want to see and to spread the message of equality so that it becomes the status quo.
I’m opening myself up for hate and abuse and derision, but in my heart and my mind I know I have to keep going. I can’t let other people silence me just because they don’t want change, or don’t believe change is possible or would simply be silent themselves. I may sometimes get it wrong and be less than eloquent, but I would rather actively try to work towards a greater good and sound like an idiot sometimes than never embarrass myself and watch others struggle and suffer for the rest of my pitiful life.
I love all people. Period. That includes white heterosexual men. I want us all to have the best we can have in life in equal measure. Fairness and equality matter and if we ever hope to have an egalitarian society we need to look at intersectional feminism and take some action and responsibility ourselves. If we want to make a difference in the world we can’t just watch a video and stay silent. We need to pick up the torch and shine it on the darkness we see in the world. We all need to be braver and bolder in our actions.
Like Martin Luther King said many poignant and applicable things but I will end on these two:
“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”
“Life’s most persistent and urgent question is ‘What are you doing for others?’”